Keeping Strong, No Matter The Odds

I don't even know where to start. My life is a bit of a mess, but it's my friends' lives that I care about more. My ex-girlfriend does weed, two of my best friends does weed, the girl I like did weed, but at least my best girl friend doesn't, that's a relief. Weed is taking over the lives of the people I care about most and it's terrible. Unfortunately, this blog isn't about my friends' stupid choices. It's about mine. I like to think of myself as a member of society's smartest class. Many of my teachers and friends can prove it. Speaking of friends, I have virtually none, and that's sort of a pain in the ass. Especially when I'm arguing with the girl that I like (stupid huh) and she uses that as an insult. I may sound like a girl, but it really pisses me off and that's probably why I say all the things I say to her. Truth is, I love her more than anything in the world, but I get really defensive around her. I don't know what it is, but it's probably my "Death Before Weakness" mentality. I rather be defeated than submit to the enemy. But she's not the enemy. ANYWAYS, I really don't know what to write now. That's all I can think of... Urmmmmm, oh yeah, there's this other girl that I used to like, but I think I might have a crush on her. This really sucks because I can't make up from my recent fight with the girl I like if I'm crushing on another girl. She'll never trust me. Then there's also this other girl that I'm in the same situation with.

I'm trying not to use my friends' names because it is sort of embarrassing and I don't feel like going through the drama with them. Another thing, I'm a legitimate player. I jump from girl-to-girl like a hormone crazy wiener dog. And speaking of hormones, I can control them unlike most boys. I don't get a boner every time I see a half-naked or naked girl. Nor when I see people kissing. I find that pathetic and I see myself above it. If any girl wants to challenge that, go ahead. Show me dem tatas shawty. Haha, just kidding, but that's another thing about me. I always have to be right. There are certain situations where I will accept defeat because I know my attempts are worthless against a stronger and better prepared enemy. Sooooooo ya. I'm also really into these games called Arma 2 Operation Arrowhead and Battlefield 3. I'm nowhere near a pro at Arma 2, but I am a pro in Battlefield 3 (to an extent). Hmmmmm, what else should I rant about..... Ah yes, most of the kids in my grade (9th) have lost their virginity, which I find terrible and very, VERY disgusting. It's actually quite frightening to know that some of the kids I used to hang out with have already gotten girls pregnant and/or been pregnant. I feel bad for their parents, but wait, nevermind.. Their parents did the same thing. -_-

So I'm gonna end this here since I have nothing else to talk about. :P

Peace Out Homies,

That Black Kid